Welcome Baby Girl

It is with great joy that I get to announce the arrival of baby Laycock #3.  On August 18 @ 2:45am, Iliza Helen Laycock was born.  (Pronounced ill eye za)

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She came very quickly and before her due date.  Earlier that day, I had a midwife appointment and asked if they would do a stretch and sweep for me.  She said yes because my due date was only a few days away.

At that time (3pm), I was not dialated at all and she told me that the S & S probably wouldn’t work.  I told her that it was worth a shot because I was feeling miserable.  I immediately started spotting which is completely normal.

That night, Annie was able to go on her first bus ride program.  I was having off and on contractions throughout the presentation and I was still spotting.  Afterwards, I told Richard to fill the car up with gas because I think tonight is the night afterall.  I called my mom and dad and let them know what was going on.

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It was a restless night and once the kids were in bed, we relaxed in bed.  Contractions were 10 minutes apart around 11:30pm.  By 12am, I had to call the midwives and let them know that the contractions were 5 minutes apart.  However, by the time, I got through to them a little after 12, my contractions were only 2 minutes apart.  They told me to leave immediately and get to the hospital.  (It was at least a 20 minute drive)  The babysitter arrived as we were leaving and we were on our way.

We arrived at the hospital and parked in the wrong area and had to make a long walk stopping along the way for the contractions.  We arrived around 1:20 and had to go and be admitted to the hospital.  I was checked and was already at 7cms.

I was sent into the labor and delivery room around 1:45 and stepped into a nice hot bath.  My contractions were hard and fast getting to about a minute apart when I said that I had to get up.  By 2:20, I was on my knees on the bed and having contractions. The need to push was starting to come but not super strong at that point.  I was having extreme back pain and the midwife was pushing on my back trying to alleviate it.

This is the point where Richard said I got mean.  I started bawling.  I don’t remember what I said but it was obviously not the nicest I was all night.  By 2:42 (I looked at my hospital records and am still in shock!!), I was fully dialated and ready to push.  By 2:45, she was fully delivered!!!  Yup you read that correctly, she was out in 3 minutes.  It was so fast, the midwives were yelling at me to stop pushing because they didn’t have their gloves on and weren’t ready to catch her.

Iliza didn’t start crying right away.  I was still on my knees as I couldn’t move because my pelvis and back were in such pain.  I kept asking if she was ok and they told me that her color was good and her heart rate was good but she still wasn’t making a sound.  A minute later, which felt like forever, they told me they were going to have to clamp and get Richard to cut the cord right away.  Iliza still wasn’t crying.

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Richard cut the cord and they carried her over to the little machine that they have to clean her up.  Beeping started going off and I kept asking if she was ok.  I told Richard to go and watch her as I couldn’t.

They were saying that her oxygen level was low and that they just needed to bring it up but that her color and heart rate were good.  Richard said they grabbed a tube and shoved it (he thinks down the throat) and started sucking up fluid.  Finally she started to cry.  They took the oxygen mask and blew oxygen at her.  At her 10 minute check up point, she was finally up to where she needed to be and Richard was able to hold her!!!

I was being looked after so he took off his shirt and did some skin to skin with her since I couldn’t.  Eventually, they had to give me a bit of gas because I couldn’t stop shaking or relax enough to get them to check me.

The rest of the night went well.  I was able to get up and have a bath to clean up and then we were released to go home.  We were home by 5:20am!!!

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Her birth was extremely fast and quite emotional but I am so glad that she is here and is healthy!!!!  Iliza weighed 6 pounds 12 ounces and was 19.5″ long.  She is so far our smallest baby and nothing fits her!!!!!

That is our birth story!!!  Baby Izzy made quite the appearance but she is already so loved and cherished in this family!!!  She fits in perfectly with our family!!!

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Flaws and Bras Girlfriend’s Getaway

I just realized that with all the excitement of everything that I am working on, that I forgot to post about my workshop that is coming up in October.

Over the 2 years since I have moved to Airdrie, I have realized the importance of girlfriends.  They have the ability to make you feel human.  Make you feel like you are more than a mom and a wife.  They bring fun into your life and allow you to enjoy yourself and be yourself.

I wanted to take these traits and combine them with an amazing workshop.  Women struggle so much with their identity after becoming a mother.  The changes that our body goes through.  The new responsibilities that we have.  They can and will be very overwhelming somedays.

That is part of the reason I started BeYOUtiful Life Services.  I was lost for years after becoming a mom.  This workshop is dedicated to teaching you self love, confidence, and empowerment all while being surrounded by beautiful mountains in Kananaskis.

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FLAWS AND BRAS GIRLFRIEND’S WEEKEND

Saturday October 15, 2016:

11am: Pilates outside  (included)

1-3:30: Lunch at a restaurant.  Getting goody bags, intros, journaling, and more.

4pm: Hotel check in. Delta Lodge in Kananaskis  (included)

4:30pm: Importance of loving yourself. Mindset Reset worksheets.

5pm: Guest speaker

6pm: Dinner (included)

7:30pm: Massages and facials begin (included)

Sunday October 16, 2016

Breakfast is included

8:30 am: Forgiveness work

9:15 am: Guest speaker with demonstration

10:45 am: Check out of hotel

11:00am: Trail hike and picnic.  Talking hobbies and me time.

I am beyond excited to be hosting this workshop.  It’s a great getaway!!!  Bring a girlfriend or two and work together to begin feeling amazing in your own skin!!!!!!

Don’t forget about Project BeYOUtiful Photo Challenge that is beginning on Monday, August 22.  The link below has all the details!

Project BeYOUtiful: Photo Challenge

 

Project BeYOUtiful: Photo Challenge

I have been hard at work on the creative side to get my business back up and running as I haven’t done too much the past month due to not feeling well.

I am super excited to announce my photo challenge that will be starting on Monday August 22, 2016.  It’s called Project BeYOUtiful and it is a 7 day photo challenge.

I am looking forward to seeing all the beautiful women that will be participating in this challenge!!  The winner will be showcased on my blog with a little 1 on 1 interview with me and all their pictures!!!!

So you are wondering what the photo challenge willconsist of.  Well here it is…..

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PROJECT BEYOUTIFUL: 7 DAY PHOTO CHALLENGE

DAY 1: Who am I?

DAY 2: Photo of a flaw

DAY 3: Your favorite outfit.

DAY 4: Favorite feature

DAY 5: Favorite indulgence

DAY 6: Living in the moment

DAY 7: Doing a good deed.

You can submit your photos daily by going to my Facebook page and submitting them.

https://www.facebook.com/liveyourbeyoutifillife/

I will also be participating in the challenge.  Please go to my page and give it a like so you don’t miss out on all the other ladies participating in the challenge!!!!  Let’s showcase to the world that all women are beautiful!!!!!

Week 38: Baby Bump Update

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I must apologize.  I was planning on giving a play by play, week by week of my pregnancy.  However, that was just not possible with the way that I have felt all pregnancy.  I am almost there!!!  At least to the 40 week mark.  Both, Quinton and Anneleise were late by 2 weeks so I am sincerely hoping this one comes by 40 weeks!!!!

I have been healthy during this pregnancy.  I have lost a total of 15 pounds and have gained 3 pounds back.  (I always said that I was the woman to get pregnant to help aid with weight loss!)  Everyone that meets me tells me how great or small I look. (Top picture is of me as of tonight at 38 weeks and 3 days) I do wish though that I would of gained weight and enjoyed pregnancy more than losing weight and feeling miserable!!

I have been walking more to help get labor going.  I have been drinking red raspberry leaf tea, walking stairs, hot baths, eating plums, and more.  All in hopes that this baby girl will make her appearance sooner than 42 weeks!!

I am still currently taking 4 Diclectin pills a day and must admit, that is 1 thing I am most excited to stop doing.  My hospital bag and baby’s hospital bag are in the car trunk ready to go.  Most everything has been purchased besides a bottle brush, burp cloths, washcloths, and a few other small items.

I am waiting for a few sheets from a local mom as I had a very hard time locating them to buy for the cradle.

My sister in law, Couper, sent some cute clothing and bibs that she made.  (I will do a separate blog post once baby girl arrives to showcase all the items!!)

Both kids are super excited for the baby to come and keep asking when she will be arriving.  Quinton is just excited to have a baby around again.  Annie can’t wait to dress her up!!!

I will share some photos with you throughout my pregnancy to catch you up a bit!!!!!  Enjoy the baby bump photos!!!!

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Do I Really Need To Say Thank You?

I’m sure like a lot of women, most of the household chores are put upon us.  I do mostly everything around the house including cooking all meals, loading and unloading dishwasher, laundry, vacuuming, bath time, and so much more.

Even during this horrible pregnancy, Richard has stuck to the normal routine.  I can’t say always because there have been times where he helped out which is why I am writing this post.

It occurred to me the other day that I thanked him after helping me clean up the dinner mess.  After I prepped and cooked dinner, I was starting to do the clean up as well.  He helped me finish and I said thank you.

After awhile I began to think about that.  It isn’t very often that I get thanked for cleaning the house, making sure dinner is ready (most nights), or even ensuring that he has clean work clothes.  It all goes unnoticed until it isn’t done.

Now this isn’t a post to complain about all the work that I do.  It is what I signed up for when I became a wife and a mother.  (Maybe not as much as I do!!  HAHAHAHAHA!!)  This is more of a post to see what the proper thing to do is.

Do you ladies thank your husband when he helps out with daily household tasks?  Does it help keep him motivated to do more?  I can’t wait to hear the answers!!!

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The True Cost of Self Love

We have all had the thoughts like, “if only I were prettier.”  We all have a friend or 2 that we get jealous over because of their good looks or great body.

Today I am going to share with you the true costs of learning to love yourself and why you should start today.

This weekend I came across something that upset me.  As I am working on branding my business, I was looking for images of curvy, beautiful, and real women for inspiration.  I went to the trusted Pinterest and typed in curvy women.  What I got shocked me!!!  There weren’t curvy women in the pictures at all!!  They were thin women with big boobs.  That’s it.  I am not saying these women are not beautiful because they are!!  I am saying that is not the inspiration I was searching for.  I am a curvy woman and I am proud of it!!

My husband say how frustrated I was becoming and told me that I should try other words.  I had no idea what words to use because I was truly expecting curvy to work.  Much to my dismay and sadness, the word that worked was chubby!!  These beautiful, curvy, and stunning women could only be found on Pinterest by using the word chubby.  It made me extremely mad and sad all at the same time!!

With all the work I have done on my own body image in the past 2 years, chubby was not a word I have used to describe myself and I don’t believe it should be a word ANY women uses to describe herself!!!

This post is for all you beautiful, curvy, amazing and real women out there!!!  We NEED to change the language that we use.  I am going to share with you the cost of changing the language that we use.

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THE TRUE COST OF SELF LOVE

1. Women and girl’s not comparing themselves to images they see in advertising.  Wouldn’t this just be a wonderful cost to gain around the world.  Women and girls realizing that their bodies are unique and are meant to be that way.  No more wanting to be skinny in order to feel beautiful.  No more reason to constantly photoshop your photos to cover up your flaws.  Imagine all the different images of women that our children would see!!!

2. Women being the best mothers that they can be.  For the years that I struggled with body image, my mothering was affected.  I avoided pictures and shorts.  My son could pick up that I wasn’t feeling great about myself.  I am even starting to see some effects of that on him and it makes me sad.  Imagine all the memories that will be created by allowing us to be comfortable in our own skin.  Your children will grow up to be confident and what more does a mother want for her children!

3. An unlimited supply of self esteem!  No more doubt, no more self hatred, no more body shaming.  Really!!!!  Can you imagine?!?!?!  I can!!  I can picture women all over walking with their head’s high, confidence just shining through with the smiles on their faces.  Being proud of who they are, where they came from, and where they are going.

4. Women supporting each other instead of bashing each other.  Another wow moment for me!!  I hope that my daughter grows up where women will stick together, help each other up when knocked down, and love each other for their imperfections.  There would be no more bullying each other (this goes for adults too!)

5. No more self doubt!  Imagine women realizing that they can be and do anything they want.  After all, it is something we say to our children all the time!!  Now imagine you believed it about yourself.  No more telling yourself that you are not good enough.  No more telling yourself that you aren’t skinny enough or pretty enough.  The confidence and self love you would have for yourself would give you the power to reach for your ultimate dreams!!  Become the person you have always wanted to be.  That is who I am becoming and that is who I want my children to know they can become!!!!

I truly believe that this is possible!!  This is my mission and my life goal.  I am here to make every woman I come into contact with love themselves and realize that they are so much more than their outer beauty.  True beauty lives within all of us!!!

Revisiting My 101 Goals in 1001 Days

It has been awhile since I looked through my list so here we go!!!!  The ones that I have completed, I will write underneath what it was!!!!

101 GOALS IN 1001 DAYS

1. VISIT B.C.

* We went to Vancouver for a week in February.  It was rainy but we still had so much fun!!!

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2. MAKE A CARE PACKAGE

3. DO A COUPLE’S BOUDOIR SHOOT.

4. GO TO THE CALGARY ZOO.

5. VISIT JASPER NATIONAL PARK.

6. BUY A HOUSE.

7. RIDE IN A HOT AIR BALLOON.

8. HAVE ANOTHER BABY.

*Baby girl Laycock is due August 21, 2016.

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9. BUY A BIGGER VEHICLE.

10. GET TO MY GOAL SIZE: SIZE 12

11. WRITE A BOOK

*I have written my ebook.  Now just to figure out how to publish it!

12. TAKE KIDS TO NOAH’S ARK.

13. TRY A NEW FITNESS CLASS ONCE PER MONTH.  (WILL CONTINUE AFTER BABY COMES!)

14. BUY A PAIR OF SEXY HEELS.

15. GET A MASSAGE.

*I have gotten 2 massages since becoming pregnant!

16. FINISH MY DEGREE (FULL PSW: 3 COURSES SHORT)

17. BECOME A FREELANCE WRITER

18. GO ROCK CLIMBING

19. HAVE A DATE NIGHT ONCE PER MONTH.

20. HAVE OUR 3-6 MONTH EMERGENCY SAVINGS SET UP.

21. PAY OFF STUDENT LINE OF CREDIT.

22. GET 1,000 FOLLOWERS ON MY BLOG.  (CURRENTLY AT 9.  FEEL FREE TO FOLLOW TO HELP ME GET TO 1,000)

23. DYE MY HAIR BLONDE.

*Yup I did it and realized it wasn’t me!!

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24. BUY AN RV.

25. TAKE A TRAIN RIDE ACROSS CANADA.

26. GO TO WALT DISNEY WORLD.

27. LEARN TO SEW

28. RENEW OUR VOWS

29. ATTEND A BLOGGING CONVENTION

30. CREATE OUR WILLS

31. GO ON A CRUISE

32. HOST AN OPEN HOUSE FOR MY MENU.

33. READ 25 NEW BOOKS.

*So far I have read 7.  Far to Go by Alison Pick, The House We Grew Up In by Lisa Jewell, Good to a Fault by Marina Endicott, The Myth of You and Me by Leah Stewart, The Silent Wife by A.S.A Harrison, Get Rich Lucky Bitch by Denise Duffield-Thomas, and The Law of Divine Compensation by Marianne Williamson.  Currently I am reading The Power of the Heart by Baptist De Pape.

34. TAKE A COOKING CLASS WITH RICHARD.

35. JOIN A BOOK CLUB

*Done in August 2015.

36. HOST A DINNER PARTY

37. SEE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS.

*I saw them 1 night after work and they were breathtaking!!

38. COMPLETE A 365 DAY PHOTO CHALLENGE

39. TRY LOBSTER

40. SHOWER, DO HAIR/MAKE UP EVERYDAY FOR A MONTH.

41. START A DATE NIGHT EXCHANGE BETWEEN PARENTS.

42. READ UNREAD BOOKS ON THE BOOKSHELF.

43. GO TO A SHOOTING RANGE WITH RICHARD.

44. GO SKIING.

45. TAKE THE KIDS BERRY PICKING

46. GO SNOWSHOEING.

47. GET A TATTOO

48. PUT $20 IN SAVINGS FOR EVERY ONE COMPLETED.

49. GO ZIPLINING

50. STAY IN A HOTEL WITH RICHARD

51. SEE CIRQUE DU SOLEIL

52. BUY A PIECE OF SEXY LINGERIE

53. GET CANVASES MADE AND HUNG UP

54. PLANT A TREE

55. HAVE A HUGE GARDEN

56. TAKE RICHARD TO THE RUINS IN MEXICO

57. GO CANOEING

58. GO WHITEWATER RAFTING

59. VISIT YELLOWSTONE

60. BUY A WATERPROOF CAMERA.

61. CREATE A BLOGGING OFFICE.

*It is done and serves as my life services office as well as my local subscription box office.

62. GO A MONTH WITHOUT FAST FOOD.

63. TRY A NEW RESTAURANT.

*We tried Texas Gate in Cochrane, Alberta.

64. CREATE A ROMANTIC DINNER WITH RICHARD

65. GO ON A WEEKEND GETAWAY WITH RICHARD

66. ORGANIZE DESK

*Done now that I have an office area!

67. GO TO MY FIRST CONCERT

68. SEND SOMEONE FLOWERS

69. COOK RICHARD DINNER IN ONLY AN APRON

70. SURPRISE TRIP TO MY PARENTS

71. PAY FOR MY PARENTS TO VISIT US

72. BUY NEW BED

73. FINISH ANNIE’S DRESS UP CLOSET

74. BUY A GIRLY DRESS

75. TAKE A LESSON ON HOW TO DO MAKE UP

76. GO A WEEK WITHOUT SPENDING MONEY

77. POST A VIDEO ON YOUTUBE.

*I did this!!!!  It was so nerve wracking!!!!

78. DECLUTTER MY HOUSE

79. EAT A VEGETARIAN MEAL 4 TIMES A MONTH

80. GO SCUBA DIVING

81. SELL A PIECE OF ARTWORK

82. RESEARCH MY FAMILY HISTORY

83. HAVE MY GRANDMA TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE GERMAN BISCUITS.

*When I went home in December for Christmas, my mom and I went and my grandma taught us how to make them!!!

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84. EXPLORE A CAVE.

*We went and checked out the Cave and Basin in Banff.

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85. GO TO WEST EDMONTON MALL

86. TAKE THE KIDS TO THE OCEAN

87. COMPLETE A NO SPEND MONTH

88. FLOSS DAILY FOR A MONTH

89. MAKE HOMEMADE JAM

90. TAKE A SPUR OF THE MOMENT TRIP.

*This was our trip to Vancouver.  We had 1 day to plan it and were on our way!!!

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91. VISIT A GHOST TOWN

92. SPEAK IN FRONT OF GIRLS ABOUT RAPE

93. KEEP A FOOD JOURNAL

94. STOP DRINKING SODA FOR A MONTH

95. TAKE A TRIP WITH MY SISTERS

96. TAKE MY MOM FOR A MASSAGE

97. BUY A NEW COMPUTER

98. GO TO KARAOKE

99. GO ON A HONEYMOON

100. TAKE A POTTERY CLASS

101. MAKE A TIME CAPSULE WITH THE KIDS.

2 Years Already!!

It is hard to believe that we have now been calling Airdrie our home for 2 years!!!  We moved to Airdrie, Alberta from Muskoka, Ontario.  We decided that we needed a change and were ready to do so as a family.

Richard left in April of 2014 to drive out to find work.  I waited until Q was done with school to move so we made the move July 2nd.  We packed up toys, kitchen items, and a few other things and that was it.  We left the rest of our life behind in Ontario to get a fresh start.

I remember we slept on air mattresses for 3-4 weeks before we all finally had beds.  We bought a used couch and luckily we had great neighbors who lent us an extra dining room table and dishes while we waited for all our stuff to come.

The first year out here was amazing.  We have tried so many new things but this 2nd year has even topped that!!!!

In year 2 we have accomplished:

STARTING MY OWN BUSINESS

I started my own life coaching business back in January.  I currently have 1 1 on 1 client as well as 4 clients in my newest workshop.  It has always been a goal of mine to work with women and I am so excited to now have the chance to do it!!!

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STARTED A LOCAL BI MONTHLY SUBSCRIPTION BOX

Yes I am crazy!!  I am finding great local businesses that offer amazing products.  Monday will be delivery day for my 2nd box and I am looking forward to continued growth for this business.

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QUINTON FINISHED GRADE 3

It is hard to believe that he will be going into Grade 4 in September!!!  He had such an amazing school year and makes me proud everyday!!!

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ANNIE TURNED 5

It’s hard to believe that my current baby is already 5 years old!!!!  I honestly do not know where the last 5 years has gone.  (As most mothers can agree!!!!)  While turning 5 years old, she will now be starting kindergarten in September.

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WE EXPERIENCED OUR FIRST PLAY

We were lucky enough to win tickets on Annie’s 5th birthday to go check out a play at a local theater.  We loved the experience and had such a blast!!!  I can not wait to take the kids to another one.

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RICHARD TRAVELS FOR WORK

Like the first year, Richard has been traveling for work.  We are a bit more used to it now, however, Annie does not like when he leaves.  This will be something I am sure we will not really ever get fully used to.

I AM PREGNANT WITH BABY #3

Yes  how exciting!!!!!!  Due in about 7 weeks, I will be the mother to 3 children.  WOW!!!  That really doesn’t even seem possible!!!! Baby girl is due on August 21st.

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Of course, we have made so many other memories in Airdrie as well.  These are just a few of the highlights.  I am excited to see what growth year 3 will bring!!!!

Art of Food: Garlic Potatoes

I haven’t done a food post in a little while.  Honestly, we haven’t been eating anything too exciting!  With me not feeling well and having 0 energy to cook, we have had more spagetti nights and cereal nights than I care to admit to.

However, I forced myself to cook dinner last night and it turned out super yummy.  (Everything is always yummy until 10 minutes later when they baby doesn’t agree!)  I decided to make chicken breasts.  They were made with butter, paprika, garlic salt, and pepper and just baked in the oven.  (They smelled AMAZING as they were cooking!)

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Well let’s talk about the main show of this post.  The garlic potatoes that I made.  I am a lover of potatoes.  It doesn’t matter how they are made, I will eat them!!  As far back as I can remember, potatoes have always been a favorite.

There are only so many times that you can make mashed potatoes before they get boring so yes, I will admit, I have a board on Pinterest strictly dedicated to potatoes.

Anyway, here is the recipe.  I found it on Pinterest and changed it up a bit to suit what we would like.  (As I always do!!  I believe recipes are just suggestions and should be changed!!)

GARLIC POTATOES

5 Red Potatoes

4 Tablespoons of butter melted

Cayenne Pepper (I don’t measure but guessing I used 4 or 5 teaspoons)

Garlic  (I used 4 cloves)

Pepper

Sea Salt.

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Wash the potatoes well and place them on a cutting board.  Start slicing through but do not cut all the way through.  Potato should still hold it’s shape.

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Melt the butter and mix the garlic, cayenne pepper, salt, and pepper into it.

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Use a spoon and pour the butter mixture over the top of the potatoes, making sure to get in between the slits of the potatoes.

I baked covered at 350 for about 20 minutes and then flipped the potatoes and poured a bit more melted butter over the top. I put them back in for another 25 minutes.  Poke them to see if they are soft and ready to be eaten.

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They can be served with sour cream or chives on the side.  Quinton gobbled them up and loved how they were spicy!!!

They would even be great if you put them on the BBQ in some tinfoil!!!!  Let me know if you try that!!!  The benefit of these is that you can add any spice to them that you enjoy and your family enjoy and create something unique everytime you make them!!

This May Get A Bit Emotional

At the beginning of June, for the first time ever, I decided to take the leap and invest money into a course to help me build my life coaching business.  This is the start of week 3 and I am currently working on my ideal client.  There were a bunch of questions to answer and I did that with no problems.  I even gave my ideal client a name, Amanda.  Don’t ask me why I picked that name, I just did.  Moving on through Section 2, I was asked to look through photos and find a photo of my perfect client.  That is when I found this photo…..

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That is me in the middle.  This picture was taken almost 3 years ago at my sister’s wedding on July 13th.  I remember that day so vividly.

I hated when I slipped that dress on.  I felt fat, ugly, like a big blob that no one could love.  I remember having to put a smile on my face because I was so happy I was there to witness my sister marry her best friend and high school sweetheart all the while I was wondering what everyone thought of me.

I hated how my hair made look and feel even fatter than I was.  I had to pretend that I loved every moment of that day so that my sister would enjoy hers.  After all, it was all about her!!!!

My dress was a size in the 20s.  The biggest I had ever had to purchase before.  I dreaded the moment when I had to walk down the aisle and have all those eyes upon me and see what a “mess” I had become.

I felt hopeless and vowed that I would diet and lose the weight that made me feel this way about myself.  After all, there had to be something that I could do!  I thought of myself as a healthy person.  I didn’t work out a ton but I also didn’t eat that unhealthy.  Yet somehow I was at my biggest weight ever!!!

I thought that is all anyone could see of me including my family.  I figured once I was out of sight, they were talking about me and about how large I had become and how I needed to gain control.

The thing I didn’t realize back then was that I needed to gain control but not of what I thought needed to be controlled.  I needed to control those little voices in my head that kept telling me that my weight defined who I was.  That being fat somehow made me less of a person.

It wasn’t until a year later when I had figured this out.  Figured out that in order to get to where I wanted to be with food and exercise, I needed to love where I was.  That included loving my overweight self.  That included loving my stretch marks.  That included me loving the fact that my thighs touched or my stomach wasn’t flat.

I realized that dieting wasn’t going to change any of it.  I had to change how I felt about myself before I could make that lifestyle change.

That is what makes me from 3 years ago my perfect client.  A woman that has come to her breaking point and realized that she can achieve what she wants by loving herself.  That no matter what, those little voices inside her head can be changed!!  They can go from hatred to love just by working on them and realizing that is the change that needs to be done!!

3 years ago I weighed 221 pounds.  Today I weigh 207 pounds.  No there isn’t much of a difference, however, I appreciate my body for all that it does.  I am stronger, not just physically but mentally as well.  I am not ashamed of my body anymore.  It may not be perfect but the flaws that I carry around make me who I am.  I am 100% okay with that!!!!!!!

That is my perfect client!!!